Well it's January everyone. One more month and I'm on my own. Gotta say though, school PPCC (pikes peak community college) doesn't count homelessness as a reason to not be able to go to school... PPCC actually expects me to still attend class as if I'm all joyful and happy, everything is pleasant and pretend everything all "Akunna Mattata!" That I have NO WORRIES! "EVERYTHINGS GREAT, MY LIVE IS PERFECT! I'M HOMELESS AND STARVING AND THAT'S THE BEST WAY TO LIVE! SCHOOL IS SO WONDERFUL, I DON'T NEED A HOME, OR A BED, OR HEAT, NO; KNOWING EDUCATION IS MY BIGGEST PRIORITY WILL KEEP ME WARM AND TOASTY ON THOSE COLD NIGHTS! KNOWLEDGE IS MY SUSTENANCE, I WILL SURVIVE THANKS TO HIGHER LEARNING, I KNOW I WILL!" So what does Pikes Peak Community College do because that isn't my attitude toward my situation, (if anyone has that attitude toward being homeless and going to school, they're the ones who need to be in a mental ward... Not me!) I'd only say this in complete nasty sarcasm... However, they apologized saying we're not going to change our decision on refunding you on Fall semester or allowing back into school. They expelled me, because I was upset (upset as in talking loudly at the front desk, and then I spoke to a records director lady to try to understand how they can expect such perfect positive behavior and perfect concentration at school and somehow get above average grades and still keep up with school work without being distracted by all of this "These Negative Emotions are CAUSING you to have all these bent up frustrations that are DISTRACTING you from Succeeding in the Academic Environment" (their words not mine). No, being homeless is not a "feeling" or an "emotion," it's a straight-up impossible over-baring concerning problem! (Homelessness causes someone to go insane! Don't these so-called educators get IT!) These so-called educators don't classify; being kicked out onto the streets isn't a valid reason for me or anyone else to withdraw from classes. "Um okay... I don't know that many people who are homeless, live in their car, and still attend school as if they don't have any problems in the world; no worries, no concerns, everything is all hunky-dory, go to school act as though they aren't going through a crap-storm without a coat or an umbrella, while their mouth is wide open." This is what Pikes Peak Community College expects me and anyone with a similar situation as me to behave like. These people are pathetic, They make me sick! If I could sing a stick and *puff* there's a house and *puff* a pile of money, I would. They act as though they guarantee a career with their degrees... Well I have an Associates Degree in Graphic Design and two Certificates one in Illustration and Web-design, so why am I not making Big-money if they're so great?

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Hey guys... this really kills me to ask, however right now I’m homeless at the moment.


Technology, I’m living with a long time friend who is hounding me to find a job since she believes it’s just so damn easy and move out by The end of February. I’ve put out application after application and only maybe a couple have called back for an interview. Only for them to tell me the same exact thing over and over, “You don’t seem like you will do well for this job.” With out even giving me a garsh darn chance to show them I’m willing to work my butt off.

Yet, they hire people who are literally ALLERGIC to manual labor, and pay them twice the wage to appease them so they don’t get sued. It pisses me off. I have Autism and PTSD, I watched my mother and fathers beloved dog get run over by a car, I know these people have mommy and daddy’s that coddle them. My parents died on September 22, 2013. My sister’s threw me out in the cold and said I’m on own. I’m still here, sadly. Not one day goes by and I don’t think about giving up and killing myself. Love to give that bayberry (under a new name) Bitch and all the rest what they wanted in the first place! With heartless pieces off shit like them in this world, I definitely don’t feel it’s worth the aggravation!

You push, you kick, you fight, you bite, you bunch, but guess what you end up someone else’s lunch! It’s survival of the fittest and you’ve won the game if you have Money, Fame, and/or Power! Just 1 on these gives you the right to control poor peoples lives!

You can play the advocate for good all day, but turning a blind eye to the innocent people that are truly in pain by the very people you are advocating for. Who’s the real villain? Saying the people who did nothing deserve it because someone said its poetic revenge... read a book. Get your facts straight, you really think they would attack now? Why didn’t they attack back then? People don’t postpone revenge -_-...

(if I had a grudge against a person, I’d want to get them now, not expect my descendants to attack his descendants. 1. How do I know if they’ll follow through? 2. What if everything is patched up and my other descendants didn’t know that and still desire to take their revenge? (They don’t even know what the whole argument is about... could be about stealing the last slice of pizza) This is about taking over the world just like before! We stopped them once! They’re trying again, however they fooled you!)

So with politics, islamphopia (more like not wanting an ideology of woman haters who desire to take over any free country and turn it to a world of oppression and insanity), racism (a political term used when a white person doesn’t agree with you), feminist (because women are oppressed because they have tits and a vigina), fatphopia (because veggies don’t taste like cake, if they did we’d still become fat, why? Because we’d get sick of sweets and want savory tasting veggies that you only get from cake... oh the irony), LBGT without Q (Queers are just feminist men who are really flamboyant gays... and real gays try to avoid, ever heard the term, “Queer as a Clock work Mouse.” Man I miss my English mother! The LBG, The Les, The Bi, and The Gay, do as you wish... Hey I’m you Bi, I find shapely girls just Be A U Ti Ful to draw, have to get that full body motion. Gays, love ya, best guy friends and you give perfect fashion advice, Lesbians, you’re very easy going and easy to talk to, al yal are A O Kay in my book. Trans, um... look umm... I’m female... I have more of a male mind... we can find common ground here can’t we?) and that’s what I go through everyday. Half the words I’m called... how do they apply to me? Like racist? I judge by character, not by skin tone.

(All I see is another human being in front of me. If you act like you’re above a human being, than I’ll treat you the way you treat me. Not one human is above another. If you have earnt that privilege than you are granted that only by the people who gave you such power, however they have the power to take it away. That is the true purpose of the second Amendment! In short; “a president is a civil servant to the people of his/her country that he/she has sworn to protect! As such nothing is beneath them!”)

I really wish people would do their homework...

My friend I was talking about earlier; well she’s not only getting on my case about finding a job, but she’s also pissing me off about politics. Her plan is to be an American History Teacher. She wants to teach her class how America was founded on the “Socialistic” Principles we use today and that’s bullshit! We wouldn’t have many of our largest company products that I bet everyone of you see every single day, more than likely every minute of your day.


(For Starters:

Let’s start off with Ford, if America was a Socialistic Society, well then all of you who drive a Ford let alone a car in general, would walk everywhere. If it wasn’t for Ford’s Model T being a Successful test run clearing the way to Model A. Ford’s company could only up from there. (Btw: anyone who drives the VMW Bug- just a little trivia for you did you know that the original design was created by Adolf Hitler himself? Adolf Hitler was the original Designer for the shape of that car the VMW Bug, just a little tid pit I know from Graphic Design School, hope that doesn’t ruin your VMW driving experience)

Another one I’d like to point out: McDonald’s, that famous Golden Arches fast food places started as a ma and pa rest stop, now it’s one of the biggest fast food chains in the world! Mickey D’s started again in America! Again how is that possible in a Socialistic society?

Socialism is structured to where everyone is equal... equal pay... equal healthcare... equal quality of living... doesn’t count the politicians! In this system if you work you’re an idiot. Those who sit on their ass get everything handed to them, those who work their asses off barely survive. So why bother putting yourself through that much torture. Because:
No one working:
No power
No cable
No doctors
No teachers
No police
No food
No safety
No security...
Why? This would have been a good thing! This here proves Socialism doesn’t work!

If everyone decided to not work because they’re getting ripped off; than America shuts down! The government is screwed! And so are the moochers!)

Those are only two examples of capitalism being a good thing.

There is so much more... not to mention the feminist aspects like Susan B. Anthony: Voicing her “opinion” by voting for who she thought would be a good president. Of course the judge was going to let her off with a warning because “woman privilege” (woman today would be like okay and do it again), however she, Susan B. Anthony, A Real Feminist, (no Feminist is an insult to her, She a Real Woman, The Genuine Wonder Woman!) demanded she was sentenced to jail just like any man who broke the law! (Please oh please can we do that to these modern, pussies who call themselves women!) The first woman to fly a plane over the pacific Amelia, or the women who rose up against unjust treatment Rosa Parks, I mean come on. Worst of all is, she’s being taught tha John Wilkes Booth was Republican and Abraham Lincoln was Democrat... and it’s reversed. There’s a saying the liberals came up with: “if those damn n$&@€ must vote then they should only vote Democrat!”


My friend has become heartless and greedy, I’m in a fucked up spot because of a malicious brat who played innocent and didn’t understand what happens when you compromise. It’s not one side surrenders and the other gains, but what do I expects from the preppy college school type, (not all preppy girls are mean, I just have this personality that sends the wrong vibes and makes them more territorial)AKA mean girl type... however,  this girl demanded everything goes her way or else. She’s from Georgia, yet she comes to higher elevation part and in the middle of the US, it’s winter yet she expects sunshine and beaches? All of us to be drinking out of a coconut? Yes, her hair is blonde at the roots, and she smokes pot in the apartment. Kind of gives you a clue on the person she is. Of and her Boy Toy is always there... when I stayed there. She blamed me for her messes, and her food she didn’t eat. Thing is I hate fish. Well another one to count she has a low IQ from the Mercury poisoning... and here I thought fish helped with brain development.


Anyway, it was hell, so my friend volunteered on the condition that I find a job and move out ASAP. I’m tryin as hard as I can here.

Being told no everywhere I go is very discouraging. I’ve made a gofund me campaign to maybe to maybe help a little... I don’t expect anyone to donate really... if anyone could click the link and share it to a friend they know and spread it around.

By February the only place I’ll be staying is my car on the side of the road... just sharing the story helps. Thank you.

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So I got a comment on rape:

The person says on a Loki reader insert:

There's a lot of rape in this story you do know rape happens everyday, right?


So I try to reply back:

In a story it's fine, it's kinky for some people because some people like a guy who takes the first step, especially a sexy hot God known as Loki, to lust over "you" the reader, and no one else. In real life it's morally wrong, it's beyond traumatizing, it causes the girl to wish for the world to disappear because everyone will forever make fun of her and laugh at how rape is nothing more than kinky Forceful BDSM... Yeah I know the difference, then why read the story to begin with? It's Loki! He's known to get what he wants by force! You don't think he would rape a girl he likes into submission? I actually want to read Loki x feminist reader! See how that turns out!

Recently I got out of situation with these three girls who can be described in one word: "Cheerleaders"! These girls were the stereotypical cheerleaders that many of us try to stay away from because of our uniqueness and our more controversial talents or interests. These girls tried to force me to hangout with them and get me to act more girly... Which I'm not, I'm just not... I like to be in my room watching videos about why feminists are crying about having to dress nice in public or doing chores while men sit around all day... Must only happen in their household since my father did all the dishes and all the cleaning while my mother did the cooking and brought in the money... Well my point is that these girls called me an "Anime Emo Geek" for 1. Liking anime, 2. For locking myself in my room, 3. For actually getting an education while they fucked every guy that was sexy and in the neighborhood... Again "Cheerleader"


(If anyone who reads this and is a cheerleader, but doesn't act like this, then I'm not talking about you just these types of people who give you guys a bad name)

lets define a stereotype "CHEERLEADER" "JOCK"
1. Dresses slutty/sexy
2. Judges everything and anything
3. entitled
4. Mocks us "normal" aka Emo geeks
5. Backstaps you when you least expect it
6. Acts nice when you first meet them
7. Lies lies lies
8. They're the real reason you don't want to go to school/work/ or even home


It's role models like Nikki Minaj, Miley Cyrus, Justin bieber, Selene Gomez, and others that contribute to this type of behavior, their the reason that girls like these exist because these three girls want to be like them; full of themselves and shameless. 

Why we actually have morals is because of our role models such as America, Italy, Germany, Prussia, Japan, pinkie pie, rarity, applejack, twilight, flutter shy, rainbowdash, Aladdin, genie, jazmine, Snow White, Emma swan, Henry Mills, Rigina mills, hook, yugioh, seto kaiba, Joey wheeler, Mai Valentine, tea Gardner, Tristan Taylor, Thor, ironman, Spider-Man, Danny phantom, superman, batman, flash, Wonder Woman, naruto, one piece, blue exorcist, yukio, Rin, Kim possible, ron stoppable, Raven, robin, beast boy, cyborg, star fire... I can continue the list, but the point is we keep our heroes from when we were children and gather more when we are adults! We refuse to go along with what has become "normal" for our age and we much rather stick to what we like, which is any but, "Yo a stupid hoe, you a stupid hoe," "we can't stop" "never say never" (I know that's an old song)... And so on. Although I much rather draw, write a story (erotica...), or cook... Instead of twerking with no clothes on while trying to prostitute myself so I can feed my 20 something kids like what these three girls will be doing in a few years time if they don't get their act together.

Btw: I don't have any kids.

Well looks like I have to go over once more why I won't update my fanfic's since little miss had a little hiss fit ([link]) about people telling her how her and her gang of deviant pals approach in cyber-bulling harassment into getting me to pretty much confess anything they were harassing me about.

Now do keep in mind, I confess in selling other deviant members and fanfiction.net members fanfiction on various sites for profit. No matter how I sugar coat it to make myself look like the victim, I am sorry, will never ever do that again, as a matter of fact that is one of the main reasons I have stopped writing for I do not want to be told I have stolen another persons Idea or the piece I have written is not original and should be taken down. 

Nevertheless, as and her gang has made very clear I have no talent and no originality in any of my lemons, reader inserts, etc. Therefore I will not continue any "to be continued" Stories or rewrite previous content for those who enjoyed my writing style, until these "people" apologize for their approach on how they got me to confess and how they blatantly disrespected my mother who at this point in time is Dead. (If anyone doesn't believe me I could literally upload a photo of my parents keepsake... storage for their ashes, don't recall the name) This is only if you want to... I am not asking any of you to harass them. I only want them to apologize and write a blog saying I no longer steal other people's work. Until then, I am literally done writing for anyone.

Here are the names:


To for stealing your talented, truly brilliant master pieces. Even though you wish to hurt me by spamming me with hate comments and by making all of the internet hate me. I still can't bring myself to hate what a true genius you are. You could and maybe should become a world renowned author. I don't hate you for what you are doing in fact I would do the same thing if someone stole from me. Stealing your work, is like stealing the Mona Lisa in her prime. You are worth millions, you don't know how hard it is for me to say that. Even if I re-payed you the money it could not come close to what your genius is really worth. I know that you would despise me even more that I admire your work. I bet now you wish for me to burn and suffer in hell. (FOR THOSE WHO WISH TO COMMENT I HAVE CONTACTED HER AND APOLOGIZED, SHE IS NOT ANGRY WITH ME FOR STEALING HER FANFICTIONS AS I AM NOT ANGRY FOR HER FOR BROADCASTING MY THEFT AND ATTRACTING THESE PEOPLE)



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We won!

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here are some of the things that Bayberry and her band of harassers have said to me and my mom "Or as she puts it my Other personality" 

Apr 29, 2012
[link] Last comment from me, but this is something you should read and consider. If you don't want to click the link, it says this: "This is awful! Not only is it really fucking lazy to sell someone else's work, the ones who actually MADE these fan works might be the ones to get in trouble, and they might not even have a clue this is happening! Someone ought to slap this bitch."

Think about that. The people that you claim to admire could have got in trouble for what you did. She's right. You're more likely to have done, but they could have traced back the original owners the same way that we did and sued them for loss of earnings.

Of course, it's more likely that you would have been the one being sued, and I'm sure you'll care more about that, but remember that the world doesn't revolve around you once in a while in the future.

Apr 29, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist
Funny how you're claiming to be mentally handicapped after everything has gone down. It's like you're looking for pity. 

Also.

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That's just the bare minimum of information I'm posting. You should thank me, because I have screen caps of everything you've said on this page. I'm not releasing those because I'm giving you the benefit of doubt. With this, our conversation is over. Don't fuck around again. Your actions can and will ruin it for everyone. 

Also, "once a thief, always a thief" is a very popular adage. I don't believe anything until I see it, especially when it comes from someone that can't manage to keep a simple story straight and lies through their teeth. 

Have a nice night.

(And for this comment has wrote saying how "I'm claiming to be mentally handicapped: If I were to scan my therapy and psychiatry documents onto deviant art... it wouldn't prove anything because I don't believe someone of her intelligence could comprehend the documents.)

Apr 29, 2012
You realise that no one would have cared if you'd left it on here, right? It was the fact that you were making money off other people's hard work that's illegal. So yes, on that account you're right; you should give up on trying to make money of Himaruya and the fanwriters that you stole from, but if writing makes you happy, then go ahead and write to your heart's content. Just either keep it to yourself, or post it on free sites like here or fanfictionnet. It would probably help if you learnt to accept the attention you got rather than constantly seeking more. Be glad for the people who read and comment, don't try and whine about how little attention you have or try and sponge more out of them.

Basically, as I said before, grow up.

(And then you wonder why I truly don't want to create reader inserts, fan fictions, let alone the lemons many of you so crave, I truly don't want to deal with these types of people... BTW: some of the fan fiction I did sell was created by me... All anyone could've told me was change the appearance of the characters. the names of countries do not belong to the creator of Hetalia, for the very reason that country names are free domain, the appearance of the country is not.)

Apr 29, 2012
I'm not sorry to say that this is entirely your own fault for not thinking about the consequences.

Have your mother not taught you that stealing is bad? No matter how much you deny it, you know the very truth yourself.

And did "your mother" said she gave birth to you 18 years ago? So being 18 years old you still cry to your mother to reply internet messages?

  Apr 29, 2012 
(Just would love to clarify If is as intelligent as she proclaimed back then how come she doesn't know how content is deleted or taken down on database in certain amount of time? kdp.amazon.com and deviantart.com are entirely different websites. BTW: I'm getting a certificate in web design so knowing this kind of thing is one of my specialties.)


There was one more commented:

She said That I have no "original bone in my body"

These are some but not all of the things bayberry has said but some if you want to see more there are more on my profile from page 12 to 14 or 15. with all the talk and harassing bayberry and her friends did. the others are on my stories.

So, all in all, I don't plan on updating any of my lemon reader inserts since "I have no original bone in my body and I most likely stole the story from another writer." If there are any of you that think my lemon reader insert fan fics are one of a kind original and you want to know really badly how some of them end, well I've given you the profiles, I've told you what I've done to receive their cyber bulling harassment, now you decide if it was warranted or not? And I should just get over the fact that they mentally traumatized for life, making me believe that I have absolutely no talent in writing, and lastly disrespecting the only family that ever gave a shit that I actually exist?

Either way, I'm not writing until they apologize for everything!