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To all the people who know me: I'm sorry that I'm negative all the time, it's hard to be positive when you've been sad most of your life, I'm sorry my hygiene is not up to social standards since my depression has made me believe I'm not worth being liked or wanted, I'm sorry that my car stinks to all that have ridden in it, it's hard to make multiple trips with stuff that I don't want in my dorm plus I live at the very edge of the apartment and the elevator is in the center, I'm sorry that I'm too poor to buy new fashionable clothes since I live on a tight budget and the first things are bills, gas, food, whatever's left is for gas. I'm sorry that I'm not friendly when you meet me, but when it comes down to it, I've been alone for a long time, being alone for a few more decades won't be much of a problem since I've had too much practice. Insults come my way so often I take them as compliments, if I get compliments they feel so uncommon that to my brain I think they're insults. I don't care if I'm unwanted, it's been that way for so long, if I was in a relationship it would feel weird. Recently a friend wanted to stop being my friend because of these things, look I don't really care, I just wish she understood my side of the story! Instead it went in one ear and out the other, I no longer have parents to care for me or buy me clothes. They no longer are there to feed me or motivate me to do my best and tell me that I can do better! During this time of year it's hard to look at a Christmas tree without crying or wishing it was over! Being kidnapped by krampus and taken to a hell where I'm forced to enjoy the Christmas that I use to have with my family! You call that a punishment I call that the best gift a hell beast can pesto! Being with my family enjoying each others company, opening presents, and never going back to this hell of a world, damnit krampus sounds like a good guy! Anyway, the girl who ended our relationship of being friends doesn't understand my side of the story and wants me to change my ways to fit her. Well I hope she can find someone who can code for webdesign if she truly hates me that much. She can always ask the kids in our class but they'll tell her to pay them more than what I'd charge her.
Getting expelled because PPCC Hates the Homeless
Well it's January everyone. One more month and I'm on my own. Gotta say though, school PPCC (pikes peak community college) doesn't count homelessness as a reason to not be able to go to school... PPCC actually expects me to still attend class as if I'm all joyful and happy, everything is pleasant and pretend everything all "Akunna Mattata!" That I have NO WORRIES! "EVERYTHINGS GREAT, MY LIVE IS PERFECT! I'M HOMELESS AND STARVING AND THAT'S THE BEST WAY TO LIVE! SCHOOL IS SO WONDERFUL, I DON'T NEED A HOME, OR A BED, OR HEAT, NO; KNOWING EDUCATION IS MY BIGGEST PRIORITY WILL KEEP ME WARM AND TOASTY ON THOSE COLD NIGHTS! KNOWLEDGE IS MY SUSTENAN
Homeless and struggling!
Hey guys... this really kills me to ask, however right now I’m homeless at the moment.
Technology, I’m living with a long time friend who is hounding me to find a job since she believes it’s just so damn easy and move out by The end of February. I’ve put out application after application and only maybe a couple have called back for an interview. Only for them to tell me the same exact thing over and over, “You don’t seem like you will do well for this job.” With out even giving me a garsh darn chance to show them I’m willing to work my butt off.
Yet, they hire people who are literally ALLERGIC
Comment on rape
So I got a comment on rape:
The person says on a Loki reader insert:
There's a lot of rape in this story you do know rape happens everyday, right?
So I try to reply back:
In a story it's fine, it's kinky for some people because some people like a guy who takes the first step, especially a sexy hot God known as Loki, to lust over "you" the reader, and no one else. In real life it's morally wrong, it's beyond traumatizing, it causes the girl to wish for the world to disappear because everyone will forever make fun of her and laugh at how rape is nothing more than kinky Forceful BDSM... Yeah I know the difference, then why read the story to
My hatred for current models
Recently I got out of situation with these three girls who can be described in one word: "Cheerleaders"! These girls were the stereotypical cheerleaders that many of us try to stay away from because of our uniqueness and our more controversial talents or interests. These girls tried to force me to hangout with them and get me to act more girly... Which I'm not, I'm just not... I like to be in my room watching videos about why feminists are crying about having to dress nice in public or doing chores while men sit around all day... Must only happen in their household since my father did all the dishes and all the cleaning while my mother did th
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Thank you for telling us this, I'm happy you told us. I've never been through something like that so I don't really understand. It must be hell to explain it over and over again, though. However, I do understand shitty friends.
That "friend" of yours obviously wasn't a friend. I'm not going to apologize for saying it. Friends accept you for who you are. They don't try to change you and they shut their trap when you're trying to explain something. And they sure as hell listen. I'm hoping you find a true friend one day.
That "friend" of yours obviously wasn't a friend. I'm not going to apologize for saying it. Friends accept you for who you are. They don't try to change you and they shut their trap when you're trying to explain something. And they sure as hell listen. I'm hoping you find a true friend one day.